Some times I just sit and wonder what my life would be like without mental health problems, I could be at uni, have a boyfriend or girlfriend, have a job even have children but no I am sat on my bed on my laptop with a staff member watching me. I have wires that I see as ligatures (something to tie around my neck), I have batteries that I see as something to swallow, I have CD`s that I see as something I could snap and cut with. I have a toilet that I see as a place to make myself sick in. my brain just doesn’t seem to see the world the way everyone else sees it :( and it makes me sad, WHY ME???